He touch my heart again and again :)

its been a long time since i went to church. its been a long time since i prayed really hard. there were times when i thought to myself how much of a sinner i have become. And whenever i find the courage to talk to Him again, a feeling of shame overwhelmes me. then i would usually say a little prayer just to say thank you to Him. But i really miss talking to Him like i used to, the talks that we usually have -- me pouring out my heart to Him. And Him, just listening to me and comforting me the way He always does. i stopped talking to Him when i got a job. i know i shouldn't have but i did. I hated the silence that had come between us. But I know, it was only me and not Him, for he was and always be my Great Listener. He is the most powerful person in the world.and He calls you in the most amazing ways...

i was watching tanikala, a tv show special for the holy week. i was amazed by the different stories they've shown -- stories of people who experienced a world unknown -- and how He saved them from darkness.

at the end of the show, the host said a prayer and requested the viewers to pray with him. And I did. i started to feel the warmth inside me, the same feeling that i used to feel with OUR talks. i felt like He was calling me. i felt that He misses me too. i missed Him too much that when i prayed in front of the television, head bowed, i didnt even mind that there were people around me. Now, I would talk to Him everyday. i would talk to Him every chance i get. i wont let myself miss him again because i love Him.